New Laptop

I am midway just checking IMDb for my own reading enjoyment. I wanna go out and do something. I feel like such a waste. I truly just want a new computer. This little laptop has broken often, but it's working better since I gave it to my dad this evening.

So, why waste my parents' money when I already have with some stupid clothes? I barely have anything.

Like, I got this dress that is the mistake not to use, and it comes with two sashes. It was $120, and I'm using it for church, no problem there. I got tired of my Target outfit since it was the display. The hemmed jeans are not okay. I'm tired of the outfit I got in January that I'd been saving. I'm tired of the tankini and black hemmed khakis.

The only problem is I got these jeans at Wal-Mart. Then, I wore the smaller size with no belt. Then, I got an even smaller size and am wearing a belt, which I don't like. I give up on clothes and shopping for fun. I am gonna have to go to a sports center and get some clothes for working out since that's all I do. I just don't feel like it.

I haven't spent too much, only a few hundred dollars. I wear the same shirt every day. I wash the same outfit each day.

Oh, by the way, my hair is bleached, so it's yellow but looks good in the back. I hope the light part gets darker. It makes me look more German like Sleeping Beauty, so with that I'm pleased. My bangs are pretty short, still.

So, yea, I just feel a little guilty. The Wal-Mart jeans, all in dark I got, were $20 each. That's really a lot of money. So, I'm just giving it a rest and wearing the 3rd pair size with this belt that keeps giving glitter off, though this time wasn't really bad. Same shirt. It was the only one at the only place where we go that I liked. So, my dad liked my hair. I just have to go to the sports store so I have something more appropriate to walk in than a bikini. I also haven't asked yet again for keys to the house for less stress on my parents. I'm still too numb to drive, as well.

Okay, I'm posting this blog since it's pretty long, boring, and a bit confusing, though that is because I plan to work on another one as a continuation at this moment really doing nothing else right now because I'm so out of it on spending more money for nothing but because I'm sick and have nothing to do. One more day or night, one more set of cleaning?