Channeling Issues -and Interests!

So, while we're at it, this blog did post right away but maybe I didn't click hard enough and I can't get to the link to post on my profile. Let me see. That's too bad really. Okay, now I'm waiting for it to save to my profile. I wonder if the boys in my family are getting more of an inclination to wake up early though they don't at the moment. They seemed to be in turns at one time recently. Okay! I dunno, this Alice in Wonderland site is taking awhile to load. I might go have some peanut butter. I dreamt that the new strawberry jelly we have in the refridgerator was gone. Tootles!

Funny Things

Well, I am back. I realized yesterday when my brother let the dog out that I said hi to the dog and then saw him haha. Also, his light was on when I got up at like 4 A.M. and then was off when I got done using the bathroom. I didn't take a shower. Not sure how that happened. Then, at 6 A.M. approximately my dad's light was on. My mom left of course at 4:30 A.M. Oh, so my brother ... hm.

Okay, so my dad was going to get me a computer, but my couch wasn't set up and I didn't have a new desk. That means I can go back in and get it whenever I want theoretically.

So, yea, I was going to sleep a little after 6 A.M. after eating 4 pieces of toast with peanut butter & jelly and 1 hamburger. Oh and I forgot to leave a grocery list which I will if the house is clear.

I guess what I am really waiting for is to have less blackheads, but I am so tired right now. Of course I didn't get to clean yet. I think I do want to go to the mall first to get some right clothes. I might ask my brother to take me to Wal-Mart tonight, who knows. I have a hat left, but it's that red one.

I'm not sure why I got up. I was putting away a load of dishes. I might take a shower before deciding to take a walk if I do later. I have to use the restroom and will see if this freezes and if my brother is gone.

Back again. Yea, so pretty much I still want a computer and am waiting until I feel a little better to decide exactly. I'm not sure about laptops as no I don't actually use them. I'm not comfortable. When I'm tired, I don't want something on my lap. A swivel chair is nice because the arms don't get in the way. I can hardly see the point of blogging nor in getting a laptop unless it's squeezing in for money. I do have worries on it breaking. I was tired and did a 2nd load, a light load, of dishes. I had a chocolate brownie, I was thinking of going to bed and am feeling more like reading. I was too tired to clean. I woke up later and now it's later. It seems likely I'll sleep awhile and just go out to walk sometime. It's not likely I'll go out with my brother. I'm not sure when. Probably I will when my face is a little better and probably when I've gained strength to clean. I left a note for more groceries, but I also left a note asking how to mow the lawn. I need to wipe the bugs off the sides of windows, as well. I have a ways to go. So, I want to take a shower first and have my towels ready, before I take a walk today. Being more restless and awake means I'll go sooner. It seems I'll lie down for awhile, though.

I was thinking I want to keep up with other boards on IMDb, which entails more clicking than even reading. Well, at least it's a lot of clicking. It's sort of not worth it considering who posts in a way. It does kind of let me down not have all the means to do what I want, like I just realized how I answered an old post and that old posters would still check it out. True, I haven't posted much in awhile, which seems normal. It's just that I haven't been able to check like anything in a way with the way my internet is. Ay ay ay. I'm going a little psycho. Just a little more rest each time makes me feel better.

So, what was the good news? Oh, yea, and I saw a lawn chair in the house, which I don't recall seeing previously. So, I'm too tired to clean but later want to go for a walk after I take a shower so I look super-slick. I'm probably wearing my blank tankini. I got it to wear as an outfit with pants, which I will be getting rid of. I really like the skimpy outfits for when it's hot. I need to find more modest-appearing bikinis so I can get more of a tan when I go. The more the better I guess. The way I'm feeling I think I'll be able to sort out the bathroom stuff and get rid of weird things over tomorrow late night through early morning. It's going to take a little organizing to find a place to keep my art things when I move my bookcase and DVD shelf to the garage. Then, I will see if I'll move my bed around. It would be more ideal, and I think I will separate my DVDs, by those old TV shows I don't like and the other things I might use to post on IMDb. I can sort my books by what I'm gonna read. I do want to use those things. If I can't find enough boxes, I'll leave them on the shelves. My dad said there's a cable or I guess a TV hook-up thing in the garage, so if I can put the car TV in there means TV can be watched there. Most of my things should be clear. I still have like my graduation gown, which should really go in a box, while the old dresses I'm throwing away or seeing if my mom wants them. I found one I could keep and this one I made that was still inspirational. I don't feel too bad about a few boxes. Then, when things are set and I go out with my brother maybe I can get some boxes. Another goal is to go to the mall with my dad and get some clothes that are more for comfort. I was cautious at this cool store with like beach theme, hot stuff, like regular clothes sorta though. The rest are really tacky, a "cross" between NYC & like New Orleans but in the bad way.

I want to see if that Alice in Wonderland site is working for me. I saw we have a Popular Science magazine and a Time magazine on the table this morning. The Popular Science one really is cool with cool new machines to do research underwater. It looks futuristic, you know, like a film. I can't wait until I get up to watching those DVDs. After that, I'm not sure. When I went to the computer store, there was an expensive set of DVDs of TV shows. I saw one of "The O.C." I know it must be a lot for just a few people to learn all those lines. I may watch some of it, but it looks too culty. I never heard of it but was interested since it was California. I don't need to see it though to be an actress. I saw my Twilight books and was wondering about that, as well, not having seen it, can't be into it really as I'm sick. I have to be into something. I think I'm tired from walking, too. I feel better and thinner really. I imagine I'll be a lot better later if I rest and all. I found the computer freezes also if it just sits there I guess as long as it takes to use the restroom, which is pretty bad. It's obvious I don't always need to use it so much. I'm not happy I have one of those light periods if you know what I'm talking about.

I feel so old, 23. So, right when I turned 21 isn't too young for life. I grew tired of college and the discrimination of having done all the arts. Yea, I don't get it. What's so exciting about business? I can't do any business. At least I am still developing my brain. Like, I could become a major in something but graduate at 30 per se. I just think I'm not going that route. I think that once your life is like this you don't go back to school. It's not nice in that life used not to be this way and the same social rules are still set. It's tacky. I know I'm no late bloomer and I'm not premature.

Yea, this is kinda pointless, but I need some practice in communicating even if no one reads any of this. Hey, that's what writing is. So, yea, I look a lot thinner, "Florida thinner." I feel a bit groggy. I don't drink nor smoke. My hair combs down in the back and looks like a buzz cut. It looks bad and revealing in the light, like not perfect for some reason, probably my health not being totally perfect yet. It's nice. I can't wait until I know how to mow the lawn. Of course then I will wash the cars. So, I do all the dishes and laundry if it's not done when the house is empty. I don't offer because ... well let's just say it doesn't matter lol. We don't even have a laundry basket. I did ask for that. Well, I just pitch in where I can. So, I don't vacuum for instance. I should vacuum my own room. It's not that I can't do all the laundry or maybe it's more that they can get more done sooner or something. Starting by mowing the lawn and washing the cars is good IMHO. With all the working out maybe it will also help me to clean my room. Not sure what I'm missing. Wouldn't hurt when I feel stronger to drive. I do feel not so good going out. Maybe it has to do with the way most people are so trashy and I'm still young.

Okay, I'm posting this just to make sure something gets posted now and don't really want it all to pile up, though that's not really a bad idea. I'm gonna see if my internet will load more quickly to check Alice in Wonderland. That's the other thing; it's not a big deal. Like, I should figure out things I do, like am I indo video games or something? Or will it just be by and by if I see one I like? It seems like a bad idea to try to get into. It's hard for me to connect the idea of if it's the computer console or screen that breaks, like why that's an issue. At least I have some games. I'm not sure what my goals are, though. I'm thinking I should stick to my art, even do some right now, and posting online for my communication and learning about other people or races. Yea, even a TV doesn't seem that important. I should see how I feel. I'm just not sure that I would get another laptop. I've been having bad dreams along this note. It's like I'm in school and can't do anything, like I can't get anything done because I'm more interested in either art as a subject and for aesthetics or I'm intrested in becoming a film actress actually. That let's me know I should get a TV and a computer for posting about it. I'm holding on other video games for now. It's just that it was so hard in a way to understand. It is like supposedly a waste of life. Like the Batman thing looks cool. Alright, so the ones with war machines were popular. Things like tomb raiding is, as well. Spacecrafts is another thing that was supposed to be big. That has a lot of aesthetic possibilities, like I could see it as being about the surroundings. I just don't get girls who just game game game like it's so fascinating. I remember doing it whenever I went on vacation to a friend's house for a couple weeks, maybe a couple years. I can't do those games where you drive a car. See, the thing is yea I can do the games on a TV, but I'm worried about the breaking a computer when like it's not likely I'll find happiness with it. How do video games connect to film. Like, I guess it kinda doesn't for me. I'm probably considered a snob in the art aspect since I am an artist for instance or a normal person. I mean really are video games ever made to make you feel good about something that's not considered too easy or minor? Where will advanced Tetris get anyone? You know I played that a lot at school. I'm worried World of Warcraft is getting old and has hard-to-follow instructions. The figures look fat, like maybe unless you become an elf. I couldn't understand it yet, and now I can't play it as I have no laptop. I am gonna read about it and then maybe decide on things. It beats something like Yoshi. I dunno what I think of that Sonic and the Black Knight. It looks great, but it's not quite what I had in mind. I am not a video game kind of person really. I guess I would if I wasn't wanting to be a film actress, which is more complicated than people doing video game movies make that look. That's another thing, how empty film acting is. I'm not ready to do it yet, so like it's like I should have a little time for some video games, something mature. I mean come on. That's what I wanted at 11 but wasn't spending my parents' money on it. I'm not sure what this will change for me. It would be nice if computer games had something like a separate computer for it or something, but I guess that isn't quite the point. I'm a little more smiling about going for my next walk at this point, maybe not moving my stuff but cleaning and getting rid of things. I might be reading more than one thing and can go into the garage to get whatever didn't fit on my bookshelf. Yea, reading is good. Maybe, even then, I'd play American McGee's Alice, though I doubt it. I did get this child's book for Alice in Wonderland. I'm not sure even if I want to read about the author as it's a dumb kid's book. Well, I'll go ahead and post this and could be reading.