Hm I wonder

if I've left a cup out before. Well yea I did but not for awhile.

:(

I wonder if it's a big deal...

Guess what? I just realized I don't have a place to put anything. My passwords are in the garage, so hopefully nothing will sign me off. I will go get them. My Netflix is still in my room and needs to be returned.

I will go try to eat then.

Yea, I mean I need to use the restroom even though I'm not finished checking. I can wait and do my room later since there is so little. I'll have to polish it up for a finale, as well. Naturally, papers will go on the top of my closet like.. I guess. Books I'm reading is on my desk now. I don't write real things. My life is simple. I'm not sure what I'll get into. I have proof of having been a music major and art sampled and saved practice. I need to get a little better, eat some things, make my room more live-able, and like need to yea then just keep on and see how much I earn selling those packs of cookies for $0.75, lemonade for $0.25. I wonder how I can get it covered legally, though. There may be other things. I hope we buy a pool, too, like one you set up for now, even if it's small or one you blow up. I can swim in shallow water, as I knw from being at the beach.

Ah my mom just got home and I see I already had the stuff from the store for art plus a pad of acrylic paper like I have, except it's smaller I mean the same but smaller than the drawing pads on which I painted already. Hm. I hope it doesn't influence me to change it up and use those instead for painting. It seems like a good idea, though, now I think of it.

I'm getting upset from two things, one being why do people of non-European races like putting it down to fun others. Two, why are Europeans so secretly sinful in stimulation and act as though they have an issue as a human being yet still get everything? Like hello there.. I think I wanna eat anyway then maybe read and do my room. Well bye for now? I'm upset about that art thing but oh well. I dunno may go lie down and sleep. That's funny I already have the paper and then they forgot simply, not a good sign. It's not like I need all that. I just needed the paint. I dunno. I just wanna eat. I wanna take a walk later but still feel wound up. I came here to check my e-mail.

At least, I am feeling better by and by.

So why would anyone question who I am because they think race is an excuse for differences, like maybe it means they are trying to somehow belittle me. No one should suggest that only they have no limit, which is what Europeans always do in the back. They don't realize what humans are capable of and when they are bad at competing against others. It's not some excuse that makes them different. Maybe their spoiled lives are an interesting thing in which to radiate to some extent.

Yea - ah I bumped the wall - my net didn't load. I'm a little tired. I feel bad. Like, I was thinking about my eyes. No one cares because all Chinese have dark eyes. I feel my eyes are dark and skin dull I mean eyes light as some kind of a joke. It's like I was just stuck in my room I realized (net not loading) for a few days. I just need to physique this out, my room's arrangement. I can't make a pie now, neither. They are not going to be friendly to me with how I feel now. I am wanting to eat the pizza anyway. It simply depends on if my mom is in the kitchen. I don't even feel good alone in my room, though.

Yea, I just wanna be online because I'm upset. I'll have to shut down and turn off again.

Hm ... age ... sex ... location. I'm getting bad vibes. Why did people propell me to start topics about that person when I didn't want to and used to make those weird ones on me? It's funny because like they supposedly don't know his age et cetera. I dunno, but I'm feeling a falling out.

Okay, freaky my mail just loaded and two messages around the same time. Better go see soon. I mean better load.

So, I was thinking the view here is really nice.

I'm beginning to get upset that no one is really interested in me online now I may get an expensive computer. :(* I wanted to do it for myself. It's just that I know I could do things with people when online it's more like writing to myself.

Hey and why would anyone assume that someone does something that they don't do? Just another excuse?

I'm feeling a lot better in and need to stay in. I feel a sense of relief at my new sn, Ms_Christina_Barrett. This really is cheap. Now no one like likes me it seems in a way.

I can't wait to eat.

So the chords are strewn all over the room. I was wondering how I could do art if I wanted a separate table. This table is like ridiculously large.

Hm and yea I do have two drawing pads. What am I gonna do with these two pads for painting? What if I mess them up just a little? I won't know to ever get a new one, how boring. I wonder why I have this. This is no fun. I just wanted to be left alone. So I didn't go with my brother to the store and just needed some paints and now I have extra stuff spent. I was kinda waiting to see on my own, but I guess not. Hey I just heard the dog's collar. Why isn't this damn page loading now? Oh it just was and is now. Hm... Lol. I guess I am upset because ... I dunno. I just am not sure. I will need more paint before that, though.

I have to clean those bathroom supplies in the garage, as well.

When I got my desk I got rid of I had gotten these Littlest Pet Shop things prior, as well. I dunno. I got something else, too, another toy, and two from that brand.

Yea I mean hey the paper is the same brand, as well. Maybe they thought I lost the paper. It's the same kind, as well. I do have a couple other paintings out. I mean the ones on that paper, two. I have one in colored pencil.

I thought I heard someone leaving, the beeping. Wow, I need to go to sleep or something. I'm not even in the mood for art. I am a little tired for walking, as well.

I remember when I wanted to move to (why do I keep hearing this echoing of beeping now, different than before, like strange.. I better stop before I need a hearing aid!) Baton Rouge in Lousiana west of where I lived (smell food) to study a bachelor's specifically for pre-medicine. I still would. I guess I'm more concerned about my own life.

My internet takes forever to load. It only works in batches.

So I put the other paintings up with sticky tack. The first one on the side by the DVDs and the other is above the music stand. I see there is no sticky tack. Also I see there is a separate pack for each brush this time instead of a big pack with like a separation in the middle. The total size of the new ones is a little smaller, one smaller than the other ... lol but I guess by not much. Of course it's not important, but I don't know what to do with the new pack of paper.

I know I used to always get a little something extra. Now I am just totally careful spending any money.. I wish I could have made the decision with my old laptop. I hope I am not provoked to break my window. I feel I am being played with, like the paper? How long am I going to remember this? I just am and it's not fair. I'm being used. It's so stupid. Wow so my dad did that over lunch then huh? I guess it's too stupid for my mom to do in that way.

Why is my computer sporadically slow? I want to go eat, too. I'll try restarting again. I've restarted maybe 5 times recently. Maybe 10-20 times today.

Okay shut down and turned back on. I just heard these two quick squirting sounds and don't think it was my fan with somd dust build. I hope no one heard me looking quietly and flatly feeling the bag to see what was in it.

I realized how my life is being wasted and wonder. I need to eat first before I "build a sale right here."

Wow I'm itchy from the sun. Hm this wasn't a good restart.. I hurried to post this for my blog I guess because I feel that bad about retaining things I don't need to. I might feel well enough to go eat. (Wow the fan's just changed, both, though it sounds like outside. Okay, I put that in the back of my closet and moved my dress.

Wow I'm getting this pop up again, not the same one as recently.

Off and on again just now. I went to peak and then went in the restroom and freshened up. My goal is to get my room clean. True I had just lost my appetite. My mom was in the kitchen doing food and talking. I'd better not disturb, haven't even showered. Why has life been so laborious? Probably because I need a new computer. I just have to set everything up just right. I could consider another laptop. I just don't want my mom looking at me dirty if I go eat now or soon or even in wanting to make a pie. It's so loud right now. Well since I have this couch here I ought to lie down. I could also just grab the pizza to eat cold now? Huh now I can hear the kitchen whereas before I could not. I'm hghly disturbed now. Okay so I already have water. I want to go in and get it... Hehe. Okay got it. Someone ate "half of what was left." Got my water vats washed.

Alrighty then. I just posted in my "Fabricated Family" thread, la dee da.