I'm going to psychoanalyze my thread that has all these posts that says "This post has been deleted by an administrator"

Title: I'm not here to pass judgement on anyone!!!

http://www.imdb.com/board/bd0000044/nest/141857959?d=141860463#141860463

But then since you so do love speaking half truths and twisting things I figure you would go that route.

Just because someone has posted a lot does not mean they are a good poster.

It's a completely innocent connotation, but it's technically wrong because the only thing different about my parents "seems to be" race to the average onlooker. I think the connotation is actually funny. That's how I got over it this evening/tonight.

Why are you messing around with me?

It sounds like something an American would conjure up if they are an experienced online poster in the present-transient day and age.

Ya I get nasty to net trolls. I can see you aren't. Why do you like Drew Gordon? Does he have problems or is he just a recluse? I'm implying a connotation to take back calling him a sociopath as a joke. He doesn't get that. I'm not serious.

Why else are people attacking him? He's not a bad guy.

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Is the issue just not liking us? He seems to see me as a mixed person and not as one person.

I know, I don't whine about race, just about judgements. Why doesn't anyone know about this?

Yea, and the issue was that Drew Gordon might think he's better.

Well, just older, and he manages to affect me a lot, somehow, not necessarily common thread such as I whine he whines. It's so funny. I think I should post more photos. I'm interested in this. I wonder how my priorities differ. I'm just so mixed racially that I really don't have those battles.

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No, I'm not treated the same since I withdrew from college. I was always treated harshly for being tired vs. lazy. I was always made fun of for being nit-picky.

I guess someone wanted a screenshot. I hate those. People think I'm stupid for rearranging priorities. I realized I had blackheads, but I kinda saw already. They're really bad. At least to me. Now I'm 23 and have nothing in that way. At least I graduated with honors and got into honors and all in college and did some graduate work in a field I like especially.

No, that's below him.

Why should we care about people who make the Mongoloid race so separate from the Caucasoid yet fail to uphold the Mongoloid race and pun at others?

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Yea, I guess a real Mongoloid would be.

Who cares at this point?

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Ya I get nasty to net trolls. I can see you aren't. Why do you like Drew Gordon? Does he have problems or is he just a recluse? I'm implying a connotation to take back calling him a sociopath as a joke. He doesn't get that. I'm not serious.

I'm sorry I said that. I was asking if he was a recluse because he seems to find problems in so many of us. It's just not cool. That one poster seems to hate me for talking to him.

I don't like that other poster. He thinks Drew Gordon sees me as a mix of 1/2 1/2 when it's unspeakable. We had a good time of it in school. So, he talks to Drew Gordon like a real person. Do you know who that poster is? His name sounds like Italian, and he's like a Jesuit old man.

Okay, where is your "connotation" this time then? Everytime someone does something and I talk back, someone will pun me on my race or like you did and just state I'm stupid.

Just because someone has posted a lot does not mean they are a good poster.

Okay, that's the other poster now.

Why are you messing around with me?

I don't have to literally accept someone punning that I shouldn't talk to or whatever with Drew Gordon, like I said someone had implied before and then a lot.

Why do you like Drew Gordon? Does he have problems or is he just a recluse? I'm implying a connotation to take back calling him a sociopath as a joke. He doesn't get that. I'm not serious.

It was rude of me to ask, but that's just unfair that people are killing me for having talked to a boy online when that never happens to anyone else because they identify with a different connection and balance, a different relationship..

Is the issue just not liking us? He seems to see me as a mixed person and not as one person.

I'm sorry but I'm just bothered at what the other poster said and nothing's gonna be the same. I was asking about "mixed" because of the connotations I see everywhere for things that aren't the real issue. I should have asked what someone else thinks?

Yea, and the issue was that Drew Gordon might think he's better.

I just see a lot of lame netiqutte, not meaning Drew Gordon of course..

I was asking if he was a recluse because he seems to find problems in so many of us. It's just not cool.

Why don't people just take what I mean the first time without expecting me to check over my work? I'm sorry, what I meant was not cool was that we have problems.

He thinks Drew Gordon sees me as a mix of 1/2 1/2 when it's unspeakable.

Correction: he bullied Drew Gordon into thinking it.

We had a good time of it in school.

And obviously that is something I don't want to have associated with my memory..

So, he talks to Drew Gordon like a real person.

This is where you let off. Why am I treated worse than everyone else? It seems as though people are dissing me for their faults..

You aren't really ChristinaBarrett. The real you would post an idiotic essay rambling on about races and cultures. Nice try though.

True. So true. Okay, idiotic? No, I just post facts and want to learn more ... is that like a real problem?

I'm sorry people. I have no clue why I lash out on Drew Gordon when a poster turns on me at all. I just feel it's his fault for getting upset and ignoring me, but since he's not I shouldn't have thought so. What am I going to do about my problem? I just went wacko mentally and have no idea why I said recluse about Drew Gordon. It's because I was fed up. Why did that poster say that about me? It's not even funny. I mean that the poster wants to talk to him. The poster said to stay away. This is a public message board.

Okay, lame netiquette. Yea, why would it be implied to be Drew Gordon? I know I'm just wallowing. So, why did everyone call me Mongy? I guess I'll just forget about it. I don't think we have an issue. I mean, the white people who did, well, or the ones who were mean I mean I have no clue why, like Honey? I don't need anyone to reverse handkercheif so-to-speak, but if that's what they need to do then so be it seeing as it didn't give me much of an after-effect. So, true, this is a learning process. So, whenever someone sees me, will they linger on "half truths?" Does that imply that they think my life is only half quality and I deserve full truths? I wonder if it conects with me not living up north. I assume that up north in the US, which is probably relatively cold, is more like if my father could have lived there still.

To add to my topic to Drew then it seems that we suffered from the other poster.
Drew was probably waiting for a response.

Me? Um, no, I don't have the time for stuff like that as it is. I'll be taking pictures in the future, though.

I can blame it on my internet. There's some proof that I shouldn't feel guilty asking my dad for stuff tomorrow. It's a whole day shopping. Hopefully not. I need clothes, too, so maybe we can drop the laptop at home, getting the next size up. That should prove I'm real. What, do I sound like some robber? That's so cute. Hey, so what am I getting? Well, hair dye is something else.

Do you think Drew Gordon got tired that I didn't respond? I kinda think he is. I mean, really. Not only am I considered unattractive, but I'm 23. Race aside since no one here can credit theirs, not meaning anyone new to this thread like you and that other person, pretty much anyone other than me.

So, yea, I admit I have lame blogs that sometimes only Drew Gordon would click on, but it serves me another purpose. I have to wait a day to try to sign into this gmail again, as well, to try to recover another/other account/s. I used to save passwords on my computer because I was less organized, but now I don't. I don't even save pictures to toss. I just have one. Oh, not sure how that connects, just one more online bit of stress. This really has gotten dangerous. My problems are just with myself. At least, I mean I got through and obviously am getting throuh in most likelihood, just may take awhile somehow, inside joke to myself. So, yes, dangerous on the front of saving passwords on a laptop that may break. Printers, mine didn't work well. That's another thing to do with this. When my laptop got broken, I developed an interest in computers because it was the key to money. It's the key to all my problems. When I'm in a hurry, I didn't do those things. I'm not in a hurry now. So, might I ask as to the issue of my lame blogs? True, my computer has less problems and I'm posting again on the Soapbox, which makes me not blog. These lame blogs will go altogether though when more than posting on the Soapbox is in order. Like, yea, I imagine this is a waste of time and anyway what could I write about that's interesting to someone my age? I've talked about things that matter, but to no avail. That's why I don't have e-mail, anymore. I just have this. That's all I can blame it on, though. I do worry about my passwords getting found for instance, but it seems unlikely. I hope I can enjoy the 4th. I'm gonna go eat now, have some chocolate pie waiting for me I made and it's absolutely delicious as in seems I made it better, too. I don't really indulge and yea need to eat to keep the meat and stuff on my body, I guess. I'm really into my well-being. When I'm even better, I want to go and do yoga with my mom since she's a big teacher. I can't wait to get back to my art, but I became a little tired, though I have something in the works. It's just not worth it now. Well, ttyl.