Getting Off

I just don't know what happened. I started feeling good and all of a sudden people were mean to me. I was so embarrassed about my face when my dad came in and covered it.

I see things I should not have seen. I should not have done those things. I need something to help me relax. There's this house I pass with a covered pool in the back. I can go do my laundry and have a day, later go for a walk with my brother. I don't need to use him as I can use the mall probably next weekend unless my face suddenly gets better though it may not as I need to keep active and out. I just can't just go to sleep I mean.

I really want that Apple. I explained to my dad and before I left came back and pointed out that the point was that a laptop breaks right away, I don't take my laptop places, ... so I want the more expensive Apple real computer and the smaller screen probably. The only reason to get the larger one now I see (I said I didn't know much about the screen but probably a smaller one) well I think 20 is good enough. It is just maybe I will so I feel I get my money worth. That's what I want and I'll let him cut it. I wonder if he assumes he'll get it next before moving to a new house, a good computer that won't break as quickly. So $1,000 for a TV & DVD. It's all under $10,000, a cheap college tuition. Good tuition in the states is $20,000-$30,000. Mine was $27,000 maybe. I had the second highest scholarship all four years, if I went back would have it back.

I just got up and looked in my parents' mirror. I only see one door, which hides the other, sorta more than halfway covering a side.

Yea it's almost like a heat stroke. I might go eat while my brother watches some TV. So yea I expect to use this again by 5 PM since I can. Hm I wonder what that ... brushing noise was. Let's hope this's a better day. Oh from the kitchen area, or it's from the living area there, same area.

The only thing was I needed sunblock, which is quick.

So, I make $200 a month if I work full-time. Sorry, well yes. It sounds like the kitchen is being used...

Okay, so ... $2,000 a year. My dad is then buying me a computer because I am always in my room. I need to get out, but first I need to get better. People needed to be nicer to me. My dad is excited about a nicer computer because I think he can use it when I don't.

I want to be a film actress, so I need to study more films or go to the movies and stuff. I know I don't just spend a lot, though, never did. So, this is like an expense for me. $5,000 is a big hunk of money. Technically it's around just that much, a very loany price. I'll ask for that in a loan, or with that credit card they had.